Thursdays give me the blues big time. Its like your just waiting for the weekend to arrive. This week its been extra dull as i've had no mid week drunken silliness to carry me through it all. As yet I have no plans for friday apart from a doctors appointment and a trip to the gym, hardly Paris Hilton. I could ask my friend G out but he is already starting to get the wrong idea, which i do not want to encourage just cos I am bored!!

Been thinking about Rob all day, I so want to text him but I won't. Don't want to lose any face over the whole thing. Well anymore than is strictly necessary anyway...God, I keep imaging it in my head and I know that the more I think about it and obsess about it the less likely it is to happen. Especially now the birthday plans are all going pete tong.

Joint birthdays are always tricky but this one has the added complications of rifts caused by unwanted friends, tactless remarks and general twatness from certain people. I've been looking forward to seeing him again for a month and its all so predictable that it all goes to shit in the eleventh hour, can't even seem to get the coke organised which I assumed would be the easiest part :(

Going out next Thursday for a meal which the idiot C will definately be going to, and Rob might be there as well :-/ I dont know what is worse, having to eat in front of them or knowing that they have both seen me naked and that everyone there will know that apart from them. Although on a plus side I suppose I have never had full sex with either of them so it could be worse 88| Might be seeing the idiot C on Saturday night, must remember not to get too drunk and start either being a total bitch to him or try and pull him and make a complete tit out of myself when he rejects me. Its gonna be tough, I can only see a messy outcome...:roll: